If I don’t make a positive impact to end up in your journal then we’re on different wavelengths.
Maybe someone will read this. Maybe not.
Perhaps I know I haven’t done enough to end up in your sketches. I get it closed mouths don’t get fed. Keeping the light dim makes people drive down the street. No eye contact keeps you away. I’m working progressively to on become my best version.
As I become comfortable in my skin, I realized if I can’t walk towards the lens, capturing the image of myself, then how can I expect anyone else to be comfortable in front of me?
The stares are overwhelming because I’m not use to it as I adjust my mind, body and soul back into public places. Give me a second, I’m working on brighten the lights. As a brown skin man, I need to model myself naturally as the camera sees me.
How can I lead, direct if I don’t lead and direct my life first? How do I go for what I want if I never asked myself first what do I want?
I must ground myself into reality first, figure out where do I build my foundation first then open up the studio. Give me a chance to pressure test the answers through experiences.
On a positive my body is my temple and foundation to ground myself. The time to become one with the people is the next objective.
Posting these self portraits will help.
Does anyone hear me? Is there anyone listening or reading? If so dialogue is welcome.
